Mistakes and regrets…

The past couple days or so, I made a huge mistake. Funny, it was just the beginning of a new year and while everyone was counting their blessings I was stuck in this chasm of counting my folly instead.

I wouldn’t bother with the details or something, just know that it was enough to put me in a phase of melancholy, and while some might think melancholy as a good thing, it’s somewhat the closest gateway to depression especially when you do not realize who you are in Christ and what you carry, especially when you don’t remember that you cannot afford to be in that mood again.

Most of us or rather everyone here doesn’t know that I’m a law student, sometimes I slip into using logic and reasoning so deep that I ended up saying things I shouldn’t have, things that do not edify God or his church, things that doesn’t put His kingdom first, things that do not prove that I have been listening and learning the Word of God.

At first, I felt I wasn’t growing. I’ve heard so much from God and from men of God. I just couldn’t believe I could still say what I did and to my mom…

I was depressed, I literally almost fainted, I wasn’t eating well, I felt my eyesight dimming and I wasn’t speaking because I felt not worthy.

Then, I heard God speak to me. He said that Christ has take away guilt and shame. As the logician I was, I browsed on guilt and shame. Guilt was self examining yourself and finding out you’d acted quite unbecoming; in way you couldn’t imagine yourself doing. Shame was the feeling of inner consciousness that people now know your deepest darkest shortcomings.

And God said that was what his son Jesus died on the cross for. For anything that’ll hinder us from coming to him (God). I was once again speechless, so this what C. S. Lewis was putting across in his book, The problem of pain.

So God’s love also came for those who He knew would be depressed, he can to give us life and life more abundantly. Id heard this scripture a lot but now I felt the scripture, and I took encouragement from it.

I made affirmations of who I was in God and prayed according, saying it till my soul heard it. I apologized to my family. I heard the Holy spirit tell me to ask my mum to pray for me and bless me again, I’m yet to do that, but I will.

Why am I writing like this?

The enemy, grows more cunning by the minute. The bible says he’s always looking for means to steal, kill and destroy. So, let who is standing take heed lest he falls.

But then, what’s the good news?!

…One with God…

Again I say, I have the holy spirit in me. I am anointed. I am chosen. I love my ministry to God and to his people. I am a child of God!

The man after God’s heart

For a while, I’d been on the thought,

“Why did God say that David was the man after His own heart?”

“What made David earn that title?”

“How can I earn it too?!”

I found out:

  • 1 Samuel 16:23.

David had confidence that God was with him. When he was brought before the king to play for him to relieve the king of the torment of the evil Spirit.

Whenever people put us in positions where we are needed. We must have confidence that God is with us and because of that alone, we can do whatever task is ahead of us.

  • 1 Samuel 17:26.

David takes God very serious. He automatically disliked Goliath because he thought he one should be so arrogant as to challenge God. So he stood up for God.

In that same way, we must take God so serious as not to let anyone talk just anything about our Father, but have authority to stand up for God and his Word because we know that it never fails.

  • 1 Samuel 17:45.

David always got God involved. Despite his anger at the words of the giant, David didn’t just let a mindless anger consume him, but anchored on the assurance that God was going to give His name the victory and chose to rely solely on God as his comeback to Goliath.

We must base all our weapons on the Word of God. God himself assures us that He cannot lie. So, in our haste to resist the enemies of the mind today, as stress, depression and anxiety, we must be equipped with God’s Word for us His children.

Always repeat to ourselves until it’s embedded in our minds, so that in faces of problems, we throw them against the enemy as our anchor.

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Why we pray in the name of Jesus

Only deep can call unto deep

Jesus, the son of God, came to earth and as man, went through the pain and pleasures of the earth and was still able to conform to the image of the Godhead.

He didn’t let the sufferings weigh him down because he was aware of who he was. Authoritative enough not to cower, yet he was humble enough to impose.

And it was written of him, that God gave him a name that is higher than any other name.

So that through him; one who was able to reach the highest attainment of the Spiritual in human body, we can connect to God.

Jesus made himself different. Not just against-the-tide different, but according-to-the-Father different. He stood by what he believed was the truth, through his knowledge as the Son of God.

Now, as believers, and with the leading and guidance of the Spirit of God, we also can make ourselves pure and Holy as Jesus is.

Knowing we too are ambassador’s of heaven, exercise humility as well as authority. Letting the Holy Spirit leads always.

Trusting in God

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart;  do not depend on your own understanding.” Proverbs 3:5

Trust is letting go.

Trust is being tired of the regular sequence of events; realizing that your own sequence might just be as selfish as every other person’s.

Trust is having no back up plan and prepared to learn as you go.

Like Abraham, trust is leading your only son to be sacrificed just because God demanded it.

Like Job, trust is not minding how hard you fall when you realize it’s for His name sake.

Like the three Hebrew men, trust is not minding if you’d die for His name sake.

Trust is divine.

Trust is doing something, or refraining from doing something unaware of the miracle close by.

… because for Abraham, there was a ram somewhere in the thicket.

… for Job, more than he had ever had.

… for the three Hebrew men, there was a fourth man in the fire.

Trust is love… Unstained love!

“Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.” Proverbs 3:6